My Doctor Visit

[Pornhubby]

Love to all of you. I miss you much and I'm trying to stay abreast of what's going on with everything. Lord knows I have lots of time on my hands. Bless you all and I will keep you informed with my progress. Thank you.

Get with a financial planner. You can probably get a reverse mortgage on the house that will let you and your wife stay in the house for life. Your daughter won’t get it, but she won’t get it if you sell it.

Orthostatic hypotension is defined as a fall in systolic blood pressure of 20 mmg Hg or more on standing, resulting in syncope (feinting or passing out). I had that investigated when my seizures started.

I want to share something I posted this morning. I don’t know if it will help or annoy, but I send it with love Bob.

Thoughts on turning a year older.

When I was a young man, I very much saw myself as a individual. An island. Disconnected from everything, but very involved in the process. I was very active. Running back-and-forth, engaged in all kinds of activities, and looking for something to give me a sense of worth and fulfillment. The brass ring. The house. A new car. The perfect relationship.

Of course, the fallacy in my thinking was that nothing “out there“ will ever give you happiness “in here.” Happiness is something you have to find inside yourself, and share with others. No one will ever make you happy. Similarly, no one will ever make you unhappy. Happiness and unhappiness come from the same source... you. They are two sides of the same coin. No one has ever poured a cup of unhappiness over my head. I generated all that for myself, and then foolishly blamed somebody else. “Look at what you made me do to myself.“ Releasing the need to judge, and learning to simply forgive others, was an important step towards self actualization.

Once I became a father, and moved into my 40s, I became more aware that dispassionate observation was a key to inner peace and a sense of fulfillment. I wasn’t the person doing all those things in the “real” world. I was actually the person in an imaginary wheelhouse, observing the person doing all those things.

That “observer” is the one engaging you in dialogue in the middle of the night.  Learn to quiet that. If you practice detachment from events, you begin to understand that it is not the events that define you, rather it is your reaction to them. You don’t have to have a bad day, even if the house is on fire, and everyone is screaming bloody murder. Serenity now.

My 40’s and 50’s were good years, and not so good years. But life is a process. Everyone will experience up and downs. An infirmity, the loss of a loved one, heartache and joy. Everyone has these. Everyone. The secret, in my opinion, is to not fight those things. If you do, you are fighting life, and the human experience. Welcome both with open arms. Because both are meant to be, exactly as they are.

And, for goodness sake, don’t misinterpret a good outcome as a sign of God‘s approval. Jesus said rain falls equally on the righteous man and the evil one. The truth of the matter is, you got lucky. Be thankful, but humble. Next time it will be your turn to get kicked in the nuts. Remember Job.

So now, retired in my 60’s, it seems that a new experience is unfolding. Forgive me if it sounds illogical, as I am new to this condition. I sense that I am becoming an observer of the observer. I find my awareness folding into the life force that binds all living things. I am more a member of this world bio-mass than I am a little individual twig.

When I tell myself to be calm and listen, in the middle of the night, is that me? The physical me is at rest. The observer is chattering. Who is telling the observer to be quiet? Perhaps it is the observer of the observer?

When you’ve lived long enough to appreciate just how short life is, you’ll understand. There is not much of a mark to be made. In 100 years, the blink of an eye, we will all be gone, and few of us will be remembered by anyone. So it makes you wonder, why do we fight each other, pollute our environment, and engage in vile behavior? I don’t care if you are Elon Musk, or a beggar on the street. You’re not going to take it with you.

What is the point of our brief appearance, on this little blue dot in the middle of a spinning galaxy, in an incredibly wide universe? For me, it must be love. That is the only currency. The only thing we have to give, and the only thing we have to take. The only thing we will leave behind that matters. We will fall back into the void, and the void will expand back out again, with new life, new energy. That is eternal life.

So I hope to leave this legacy to my children, and my children’s children. I’ve been fortunate to love, and to be loved. I’ve been fortunate to have family and friends. I’ve been fortunate to enjoy success in my endeavors, and I have been fortunate to have fallen flat on my face and failed. Because all experiences are good and correct, but only if we recognize and accept them as such.

Wishing you all love and blessings this holiday season. Remember, if you don’t agree with anything I have said, there’s no reason to be upset. Because we all view the Divine from a different perspective, and there are many points from which to view. Namaste.

I love you Bob. Wishing you a good day. Every day.

[msslave]

Latest from the VA front. Yes, I'm still here. There's a social worker trying to find me a rehab place and of course there's finances that need to be worked out.

The technical name for what I have is orthostatic hypotension. I think I mentioned what that is earlier. Just to recap, it means that when I change position like standing up my blood pulls down to my feet and doesn't pump back up into the parts of my body it needs to be like my brain. So that's what causes some of my craziness like just sitting there and not being able for my wife to wake me up.

Anyway, the food is good here. The nurses are great and take good care of me. Too bad Rick's not around so I could tell him just how good they're taking care of me.
Love you all! And I'll keep trying to stay in touch.

I love you all and I'm trying to follow the goings on  on KB as best I can. Sounds like things are pretty normal. That means you're all crazy as am I. We have some newer members that are really fun to have and are participating. So will it's good to see getting new blood in like that. Okay, that's enough, I'll say goodbye now

[ObiDongKenobi]

So sorry to hear about your current situation Bob.  I hope the financials work in your favour.  Love and best wishes.

Obi.

[Writers Bloque]

Latest from the VA front. Yes, I'm still here. There's a social worker trying to find me a rehab place and of course there's finances that need to be worked out.

The technical name for what I have is orthostatic hypotension. I think I mentioned what that is earlier. Just to recap, it means that when I change position like standing up my blood pulls down to my feet and doesn't pump back up into the parts of my body it needs to be like my brain. So that's what causes some of my craziness like just sitting there and not being able for my wife to wake me up.

Anyway, the food is good here. The nurses are great and take good care of me. Too bad Rick's not around so I could tell him just how good they're taking care of me.
Love you all! And I'll keep trying to stay in touch.

I love you all and I'm trying to follow the goings on  on KB as best I can. Sounds like things are pretty normal. That means you're all crazy as am I. We have some newer members that are really fun to have and are participating. So will it's good to see getting new blood in like that. Okay, that's enough, I'll say goodbye now

I am keeping the positivity flowing to you. You are a great man. I hope the rehab place they send you offers hot water baths by nurses. I will keep posting stories for you to enjoy while you recover.

[msslave]

Thanks WB. Your stories are a great treat for me.

[msslave]

Next stop for Bob is Rehab.

Yes, I'll be blowing this pop stand tomorrow. I'm heading off to a rehab facility still in southern Minneapolis so I'm staying close to home. I owe a lot to the A counselor here at the hospital that went to work for me to find a rehab facility.

I was most worried about the cost. I had visions of having to do a reverse mortgage and lose all the money we've got vested in our home. Not so with this rehab facility. I'll be able to go there for 29 weeks and the cost will be paid for by Medicare part A. That's something I've kind of always known I had, but I really never knew what it's covered. Well I have a good idea and it's a heck of a lifesaver.

I'll keep all of you updated once I get to rehab. I'm sure there's going to be a lot to do tomorrow going through the discharge process and whatever else is involved. And of course I realized when I learned about being able to go to rehab that I had no clothes. Just what they brought me to the hospital in the ambulance. That was what I was wearing. So now when called my wife and she's been busy packing up what she thinks I could use and there's a friend there that came over to do some work for her. Who's pitched in and is helping get everything ready. It's good to have such great friends.

[Writers Bloque]

Next stop for Bob is Rehab.

Yes, I'll be blowing this pop stand tomorrow. I'm heading off to a rehab facility still in southern Minneapolis so I'm staying close to home. I owe a lot to the A counselor here at the hospital that went to work for me to find a rehab facility.

I was most worried about the cost. I had visions of having to do a reverse mortgage and lose all the money we've got vested in our home. Not so with this rehab facility. I'll be able to go there for 29 weeks and the cost will be paid for by Medicare part A. That's something I've kind of always known I had, but I really never knew what it's covered. Well I have a good idea and it's a heck of a lifesaver.

I'll keep all of you updated once I get to rehab. I'm sure there's going to be a lot to do tomorrow going through the discharge process and whatever else is involved. And of course I realized when I learned about being able to go to rehab that I had no clothes. Just what they brought me to the hospital in the ambulance. That was what I was wearing. So now when called my wife and she's been busy packing up what she thinks I could use and there's a friend there that came over to do some work for her. Who's pitched in and is helping get everything ready. It's good to have such great friends.

loot the room of the small things that was used on you. My parents would take the ice containers, and rolls of medical tape. I thought they were stealing, but a nurse once told me that it was paid for by insurance, so they usually toss stuff like that when cleaning the room. Grab a couple of blankets too. Makes great gifts! (joking)

[msslave]

I'm in a very sparce room. Not a lot to choose from 

Guess without doing any procedures there's no tape even. Maybe a bedpan. I've heard they make good planters   

[Pornhubby]

It's good to have such great friends.

Everyone loves Bob.

Wishing you a speedy recovery in rehab.

[MintJulie]

Get well, sweet man.  We love you.  ❤️

[ObiDongKenobi]

Get well soon, Bob.  Is there anyone that can help your wife if she needs it while you are in rehab?

[msslave]

Yes, my wife has had all kinds of help from neighbors and friends. She's doing very well and even so it's been a concern for me not being able to be there for her.

Just today we had a delivery that came of course in one big huge box. And was naturally too much for her to handle. One call from me to a neighbor. Got someone headed down there who helped her get the box inside and he even opened it up for her. That's just one example of all the help. She's been getting while I've been sequestered at the VA hospital. And now I've got 29 days of rehab ahead of me. Maybe I can push through and kept that a little short. Even just need to find out what their requirements are for graduation.

Thanks for the kind thoughts. OB. It's friends like you on KB that make this site so wonderful.

[msslave]

I'm all settled into my rehab facility. It's a very nice facility. Very attractive and well staffed and supper tonight was very good. If that's a sign of what the rest of the food is going to be like that will help make this a pleasant stay.

It doesn't sound like the physical education training they give. Residents is very hard. The people at dinner tonight indicated that it was fairly easy. After sitting in a chair or laying in the bed at the VA for 10 days, I was able to get on my feet and start moving around with my four-wheel Walker. That really made things easy and I think with the help of that I'll be able to get plenty of exercise and get my body moving and get back home to my baby as soon as possible.

[Pornhubby]

Good news. ❤️❤️❤️

[ObiDongKenobi]

Glad the food is good.  If there is one thing that keeps me out of prison and hospital in the UK it is the thought of the abysmal food.

[msslave]

Well it looks like things are starting to settle into the swing of things at my rehab. I had a visit this morning with the occupational therapist and we got we got that out of the way. I'm hoping to see the physical therapist later today.

I had a visit yesterday with the lady in charge of physical therapy and she came down. Took some background information and then she wanted to walk down the hall with me and see how I moved. She was most happy with what she saw. That was moving fairly well if slow. In physical therapist. Thought things looked really good and the music to my ears was she didn't think I would be here for the full 29 days. She thought once I got up and running and got my strength and balance in place I'd be able to sign out and go home.

It would sure it would be nice to get back a regular routine and to be there for my wife..

[Writers Bloque]

That is wonderful news! Wrote you two boredom killers if you are interested. That makes my day, I am really rooting for you!

[Pornhubby]

It would sure it would be nice to get back a regular routine and to be there for my wife…

It’s all good news, Bob. I hope you get home soon. It would be nice to spend the holidays with your wife. At home. Sending you love and healing vibes.

[Shiela_M]

So glad that the finances are not going to be such a major issue for you. I was doing some reading and was wondering if something like compression socks or other devices that help blood flow would be helpful. When I had a really bad flare up of my MS, and I couldnt getbout of bed, they put these things on my legs that would slowly compress, and the release. Said it was to keep things flowing better.

Anyways, sounds to me like there is a plan for you. I wish you only the best, and will continue keeping you in my thoughts and circles.

Love you so much 

[Coach Eric]

Sounds like good news Bob.