What RUINED your day today?

[Pornhubby]

Client skipped an appointment yesterday. Did not do one thing I asked him to do. Then he sent me an after hours email, requesting a meeting at 8 AM. I never go to the office before 9 AM. And I never schedule client appointments before 10 AM. There’s a good reason for that. People don’t keep those early morning appointments. So I’m going to the office at the crack of dawn. And I guarantee-damn-tee you, he will not keep this appointment. Unfortunately, he has a deposition this afternoon, that he will be totally unprepared to do well giving. What I do for a living.

[Coach Eric]

A morning trip to ER for me. Woke to my eyes all swollen and red. Couldn’t really open them. Just so sensitive to the light that they hurt to bad. Head hurt so bad felt like my brain was going to explode.
So spent an hour at the hospital then told to go see the eye doctor. Appointment was all set up already. More drops and bright lights shined into my eyes. All good in the long run. I do have an eye issue that I’ve known for years but it’s actually not as bad as I thought. But a few weeks of treating this then go back to discuss cataract surgery. 

[msslave]

Dang Eric. Sounds like a hard way to wake up. Will the cataract surgery help this or is it a separate issue?
Take care and hope your recovery goes well.

[Pornhubby]

Bummer bro. Take care of those eyes!

🍑👀

[Writers Bloque]

This is more like what ruined my year...

I told you all before the downtime that my parents supposedly went on vacation. It was a lie to cover up my mom's failing health. For the last month and a half she was in the hospital, and then a couple of weeks ago was transferred to Hospice care in the hospital. She passed away at 9 am yesterday, and I have been devastated ever since. I tell you all this not for a pity party or sob stories, but because I genuinely trust and care about you all enough to share.

and then to top it all off, I called my boss cause I needed a day or two to collect my thoughts and grieve, but this morning a cps social worker brings over my cousin's kid, since no one in the family wants to take her in. She is 12, and pretty much a latch key kid, and now her parents are going to jail and I have to redo my plans for the future.

I understand why my parents lied to cover it up, I would not want my kids to see me weakened like that, but still its my mom and I will truly miss her. Thats what ruined my days. Thank you for reading.

[msslave]

My most sincere condolences WB. The loss of a parent is devastating. That you need time to grieve is most understandable.  May your grief eventually turn to thoughts of memories of happy times.

And, now you have a 12 year old kid to care for. Guess in the near future we will be seeing accounts of WB as a foster parent.

[Writers Bloque]

My most sincere condolences WB. The loss of a parent is devastating. That you need time to grieve is most understandable.  May your grief eventually turn to thoughts of memories of happy times.

And, now you have a 12 year old kid to care for. Guess in the near future we will be seeing accounts of WB as a foster parent.

We already took in a kid, Mimi (not her real name.) since her parents will be working out of the country for the foreseeable future. I did my time as a parent, but I don't mind, shes a good kid, just didn't have many people in her corner who had her back.

My mom would have taken her in, no questions asked. Thats one of her best qualities. I deeply appreciate your sympathies, she would have loved reading about your life you post. Not much one for erotica, but still I loved her fascination with things that she did not know about pretty cool.

[Shiela_M]

My heart goes out to you WB!! As mssalve said, I hope your fond memories help you get through is. So much to take in in such a relative short period of time will show just how strong you are.

Take care and best wishes with the little one Love.💋

[Coach Eric]

Dang Eric. Sounds like a hard way to wake up. Will the cataract surgery help this or is it a separate issue?
Take care and hope your recovery goes well.

I have scleritis. Not sure what brings it on but no, the cataract surgery will not fix it.
What I found out today id that I have EPI-scleritis which means it’s on the outer of my eye, not deep. That’s a good thing. No eye damage from diabetes, cataracts or this.  But also seems to be no cure either. My eyes get all bloodshot and swollen. Can’t see real well and sensitive to lights. Just slept  for 4 hours and woke up feeling better. Eyes are red again but head stopped hurting

[Coach Eric]

Sorry to hear this WB. Thoughts and prayers are with you

[MintJulie]

Eric, sorry to hear this.  You only get two. Take good care of them and get the treatment you need.  I'm going to schedule with a doctor. My eyes haven't been really clear at times and I'm wondering if I might have cataracts. 

WB, we were worried about your absence.  I'm so so sorry to hear about your mother.  It's so hard.  I recently lost my father and I still think of him every day.  Each day gets a little bit better.  The pain turns into happy memories. Today you're crying, but in the near future you'll be sitting there thinking about something and you'll think of her and get the biggest smile on your face.  My heart goes out to you. Hugs to you. 

[msslave]

Good grief Budalah, you have nothing to apologize for. That is horrible news to receive. Even worse that you're not able to connect any one to reach out to. KB is family, for those who participate. If you feel safe enough to share your pain with us then feel free to do so..

Another member today shared about the.loss of his mother. I've talked a lot about my medical  problems and found nothing but support here... support that's helped me through my treatments.

Your loss is just as bad as can be imagined. I sincerely send you my deepest sympathy.

[Shiela_M]

A friend Allan knew while in the Marines had committed suicide. Allan said he had been struggling for a long time, and ended his own life last month. This is why Allan's been gone for so long. The guy left behind a wife and two adult daughters that Allan went to be with. He stayed helping them get things in order through the VA and setting up the funeral.

He came back home for a bit, and that is when we had are little fight. I had no idea why he was being the way he was, or why he didn't just tell me right away. Thought he was just being an ass with his comments that my dads issue was no big deal, or it could have been worse. Me being me, went off on him, but I had no idea he was going through what he was. I feel so bad, but I also don't, because I didn't know.

We talked on friday, both got to decompress from our own situations. We spent much more time on him since my dad is doing great other than complaints about his new diet. It was a long couple weeks for him, and his friends family.

You guys keep so much in and so much bottled up because you feel you cant talk about it because so many people have told you not too. Well I just want to say, it's ok to talk, it is ok to open up, and it is ok to ask for help.

[Pornhubby]

Everyone has their own little private Idaho. We all deal with our peculiar set of hurts, frustrations, and disappointments. Unfortunately, for many, we don’t have a healthy way of releasing that, and end up beating up on the very people who love us the most.

My dear Sasha is one of those, and when she acts out, she ACTS OUT. I told her I know she loves me, and she is pushing me away because she is fearful that I will leave her and it will cause her even more pain and anxiety in her life. It’s sort of like a preemptive strike. Unfortunately, she is so vociferous in these moments, that I question my ability to separate her from her comments. Which are *truly* horrible.

So I hope you two work it out. I know all the things you say about the non-exclusive nature of the relationship, not wanting anything serious, and not being in love, but actions speak louder than words. And I see a lot of actions. You both deserve to be happy. It would be nice if you find a way to be happy with each other.

Sending hugs.

[Clitical Thinking]

You guys keep so much in and so much bottled up because you feel you cant talk about it because so many people have told you not too.

I always thought the "real men don't talk about feelings" thing is bullshit. It doesn't lead to anything productive, and you could also make the argument that allowing yourself to be vulnerable by talking about your feelings is a sign of strength, not weakness.

[Shiela_M]

Its horrible you have to go through that Love. I am of the same mind that I have to keep Allan and past relationships at arms strength to protect my own heart. It is a selfish act, but I dont go so far as to attack the other person, except for once. I was young, dumb, and scared, and he wouldn't let go, so I cheated on him, and let him find out. I will never forget that look on his face. My single greatest regret.

I can sit and keep lying to myself about how I feel about Allan, and what we've got going on, but I know what I'm feeling. I also know I'm not getting any younger, and it's only a matter of time before things start going south for me physically with my MS. I don't want to be a burden, and I don't think I could survive another disastrous relationship.

[Pornhubby]

First off, good to see you CT.  Woo.

Second, Shiela, this “I’m not getting any younger… I would’ve want to be a burden” stuff is total BS.  You may get hit by a bus tomorrow.  You may live to be 100.  You may find yourself in a beautiful house, with a beautiful wife. And you may ask yourself, "Well, how did I get here?"

Loving someone means giving them permission to hurt you. Because we always keep our guard up with others, at least I do.

There’s no sense in treading water, waiting to see if things change or get better. I wasted 15 years of my life in a relationship like that. I would love to have that time back. Don’t make the same mistake.

[Clitical Thinking]

I dont object to anything, and when it comes to MJ and myself, there is no competition. I'm like the flavor of the day, and she is the fan favorite. She has class, sophistication, intelligence, a kind heart, and of course great looks. While I'm over here going "look at my twat and like me."

Yeah, no competition at all.

I'm fine, it's fine, everything's fine.

There's no competition because you're both unique. There's no MJ like MJ, but there's also no good girl like Shiela. You wouldn't be POY three times in a row if you were the flavor of the day.

Edit: yes, I've been itching to reply to this for a week 🤣

[Clitical Thinking]

I don't want to be a burden,

Nobody that loves you the way you deserve to be loved would ever consider you a burden 

[Shiela_M]

That was after one of my arguments with Allan, and I was stressing over everything. Mix that with some tequila, and I was hating on myself pretty bad. It happens from time to time.

As for the other thing. I'm never gonna stop worrying about when or if I may lose the use of my legs, or be able to walk faster than a crawl. I already use a cane sometimes, and my jogging is getting slower and shorter. My feet drag a lot more than they did when I first joined KB. age is a factor of that, and I find 8t difficult dealing with the realization that I may need to rely on somebody to do the simplest things. So 8n my head when I have all this anxiety and depressive thoughts, I think "what guy wants to be burdened with that?"  There are guys out there that are up for the challenge, but is the man I'm with one of them? Does he think he is until it becomes too much, and he has a change of heart. These are deep seeded fears I've had for as long as I can remember. Being made like I'm not good enough by my own bitch of a mother, and then fear of another bad choice in a man...

I can't just switch it off, and swallowing my fears and diving it head first hoping things turn out is easier said than done. As long as I dont get hit by a bus, I have an pretty solid picture of my future.