So I had an MRI done, and I spent some time in with the doctor this morning. She showed me the results and the change in my brain from eight years ago to now is very concerning to me. I had a small amount lesions the last time I had an MRI, and now when I see the images from then compared to now, and see soooo much white, it scares me to my core. I'm already using a cane on bad days, and if I turn my head to the left too quickly, I can lose my balance. I'm worried that at the rate things are going I may not be able to walk in ten years, and that is more frightening to me than death.
After I left he doctors office, I spent lunch with my dad, and then with him nearby I cried myself to sleep. Woke up about an hour later and now I'm just getting on with my life.
It really sucks, but all I really want to say now is
FUCK YOU MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS 🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕