For me, I have so many unanswered questions about the world we live in and the universe as a whole.
If you have multiple personalities and you masturbate is it rape? What if you kill yourself is it suicide or murder?
Would I be shallow if I turned gay just to double my wardrobe?
Speaking of gay, who decided that baseball should be the reference? Seems like quarterback and center would make more sense.
Cap'n Resu, ya crack me up.
What keeps me up at night?
Where do I start?
My brother-in-laws health. There will come a time when we've determined he'll move out and into a care facility, which brings us to....
Having to care for my niece when the time comes. I feel so pressured by this but I'm the only one that can do it. And I could never ever lose her. I have some help now with the caregiver Joe has employeed full time that lives with us. She's so great.
My current relationship. I'm better now, but it was major stress on me in the beginning. Stress in a way I've never felt. But the feeling I have for this person outweighed that. It was difficult because I was so happy, yet worried (and still am) about what others would think and how they'd look at me. Not that I ever looked down on someone for dating a person of the same sex, but I know it happens. I'm
good better with it now.......except when I see my mother and she is constantly giving me her 2 cents.....it just hasn't been your normal mother daughter relationship for most of my adult life and this has made it tougher. I should say, "F*$# it, what do I care what you think." But she's still my mom and I've always wanted her to be proud and happy to call me her daughter. It has never happened and gotten worse since my sister died.
Work....I was supposed to come to Joe's work and handle a couple of things. Straighten some things out and get out. I'm in so deep now. I don't have the confidence in the people that I'm supposed to leave in charge. They'll just screw it up again. I CAN'T BE STUCK HERE. I still have another job that I enjoyed. I don't enjoy this. But in the end, it's what will support my niece and I. It has to keep going. Ugh!
Many other little things. Life just seems to pile up on me. My new friend has helped. Well, we've helped each other a lot.
And visiting here helps me forget most of it. I love you all so much. Thanks for being my escape from reality.
Jules