One thing to consider. A lot of of people appear angry at God, even if they don't believe in God because of how they have been treated negatively by certain believers. It does not negate the over ride logic that God does not exist, or provide logic to what God is. Being friend with many believers over time, is that most are awesome people, and do not judge others, and are caring people.
Allow any search or understanding or relationship with God between u and God, and not colored by the negative experiences of people who controlling.
Let's say I have several lesbian gay friends who are awesome, but I also know this bossy butch lesbian at work who is a mean spirited person, hates all men, she is only nice to tall blonds women, etc. l do not judge GLBT lifestyle off the loudest ones.
Soon in the west, there will be some christians who reflect open crucification as that God, came to live with them, was blameless, replaced the passover lamb once and for all, that yet while they were sinners, died for them, so that some day, God may have fellowship with them, and them with God.
If u look at the life or Christ, and His moral teachings, there is not a lot to be argued with.