I am a week late on this, but I am getting married!
April 6th, 2024. 
. The proposal was a complete surprise for her. She knew I would eventually ask, we live together, but I had mentioned it would be next year after I finished paying my ex off for her share of my company. A very special ring came along, and we were heading to Palm Springs which is the first place we ever went together, so I figured why not.
It has made my past week. 
Congratulations love. That is amazing news. It's so awesome that you were able to make it an extra special occasion as well.
As for my own thing going on, for the longest time I didnt want to log on knowing that I posted about me and Allan while my head wasnt all that clear.
It was late afternoon when I got there, and I had spent a lot of time chatting with my friends over the phone. Pretty much heard the same thing from some of you on my relationship with Allan. Whether I say it or not, I still feel it. Time to let myself get hurt again. I was at his place for less than 30 minutes before I said it.
After I told him, he smiled kissed me and said it back. Told me he loved me for a while for a couple months now. We talked for a while about the past but didn't go too far into details. Didn't want to ruin the moment too much with baggage. Talk for another day. We held each other for a while, kissing, and me giggling like an idiot repeating it over and over again. We moved to bedroom and, dare I say it? We made love.
We laid in bed for a bit talking while watching some random cooking show. I was feeling happy, and anxious, and a bit stressed out. Have an excuse to leave and go home, said I'll talk to him tomorrow and with another kiss and "I love you" I left.
He texted me asking if I made it home safe since it was windy as hell. I just sent back a "yep" then didnt reply to his next two texted and didnt answer his phone call. I just sat and drank thinking about where things are gonna go and what parts of my life am I now gonna have to sacrifice. Driving to Milwaukee for a girls weekend? Girls night at the bar? KB? Not sure how he will feel about me doing some of these things. I did call him first thing this morning and talked about me missing his texts. Said I was sorry, and that I just needed to think for a while. He said he understood and that he would have been worried if I had left right away, but seeing as I stayed around for several hours, it didn't bother him too much.
We are however, going out on a date date tonight. One of my favorite fondue restaurants is having a special with chocolate covered strawberries and it was only available for the next two day, and he's going to be busy tomorrow, so he said he'd take me today.