I have been ordered to volunteer for Le Leche again, so I am exploring the current generation of breast pumps. The timing is terrible as I have finally built up my supply and we are back in class. Luckily our union contract supports breast feeding, even if you are pumping for others, so I can use my resource room to pump and store the milk.
The problem is this is not my choice, it is under her orders. I am given very specific visualizations to remember why I am milking myself. I am a submissive and pumping is kind of on the pleasure/pain border with humiliation thrown in, so being ordered to masturbate while I pump with some very specific visualizations is having a very Pavlovian effect on me.
I have to say I am always aware of my breasts now, and I don't know whether it is the whole "must pump or they will hurt" or need to masturbate that is going to be the dominant figure of my scheduling going forward, but it is going to be a log wet year.
As an aside, it's not really just a sex game. There is a real need for breat milk for those who can't build their supply and if I have to carry these damned things, they may as well do some work. It's just kind of creepy making something I used to do with my daughters into something I do for my lover while I masturbate. I mean, it hits a lot of kinks at once, I just never thought I would be doing it for another woman.